I had a dream with him in it last night.
I suppose it is that time of the year, coming close to Ramadhan, that I feel the "pinch" to be more painful. The "missing him" to be more evident. The "memories" being more surreal.
We were standing together. It was like at a corner of a building, as people were passing by us. People we knew, but I don't recall them now. Then suddenly, a lady, a familiar figure, his sister I think, started shouting at him and pointing her index finger towards him.
"You are no father! You are not a good husband either" I heard her shout while angrily she pointed her finger to him.
I turned around to face him, but could not see his face. I was standing too close to see his face. But I hugged him tight as I put my arms around his waist and rested my head against his chest. He was a tall(er) man. I heard his heart beating and felt his chest move with his breathing. In the background, his sister continued to yell. But it did not matter, as hugging him was like the most comforting thing in this world!
Then I woke up.
2 comments:
Hi sis pnp:-) i couldnt sleep and somehow my mind wander about you. Reading your posts makes me smile and connected?? Whatever that means. Never mind. I guess we are on different paths now, but one way or another i can feel what you feel.hehe. Apa i mengarut ni. Many things i have to leave it unsaid, but your post makes me feel like you have spelt it out for me?ignore me. Take care dear sis.
dear nanrfz33,
i know you know what i mean...
hope things are well with you too.
missing the regular connections.
keep in touch, albeit anonymous....
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